I'm Chantel,
I live in a small town in Newfoundland and Labrador. I'm 17 years old and wish to join the Canadian Military. However my life is not perfect and it never will me.
I was told by someone who i have barely spoken with to start making a blog to release some of my feelings. With which i have been holding in for the past 17 years. No i have not always been depressed and smiled when i haven't been. Even this past weekend was fun until it was torn apart by people talking behind my back.
To start, I've never really had freiends no one i could trust and not think twice about "should I have told them" that person never existed. everyone i have become friends with has always turned there back on me at somepoint. Some people may not have noticed what they were doing but... Lets put it this way thigns change no matter what even if you don't want them to.
My life has been full of hard times and i've taken them pretty well considered. I know there not like losing your parents or not having a home, and to some people this may seem so stupid but its affects everyone different and I can no longer take it, I have to do something to start over and become the perfect me or at least try. I need to do whats best for me and as it stands NO ONE understands that.
So as I stand I'm currently trying to become better if it seems like im different its cause i'm changing.
T_T ... Becoming the new and improved Chantel <3
